in the deepest pit of s**t

as i'm typing this, my left hand grew heavier.

tu lah. terlebih pandai.

dah tau kidal, nak cucuk tu ckp la kat misi nak cucuk tangan kanan. ni dok sibuk interview nurse pasal vaksin, elok je hulur bahu kiri (unconsciously sbb tgk my colleague hulur bahu kiri).

kan dah lenguh nak mampus.

padan muka. esok DAN lusa ada meeting nih. ada idea nak tulis notes cne?

really. i couldnt get why ppl can be sooo bloody rude.

salah ke kalo ckp elok2?

ni lah jadinya, kalo dah blajar berbakul-bakul, bodoh pun berbakul-bakul jugak.

tensiiii!!!

aaaaaaaa esok kejaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!

it was a known fact that my dream of all dreams is to be a housewife yg takde keje lain pegi shopping n spa-menyepa, which is sadly, i know, will forever be a dream.

i mean, gila ke hapa nak quit job (even though i never ever liked it, right from the time i was studying it). i'm still sane, thank you. but still, its all coming fast. extended hours, 24 hour services (which means working in shifts that i really couldnt ...) n this h1n1 thingy still 'sepak'ing my ass every bloody week, makes me long to live my dream.

still, a job is a job however u say it. i really envy those who really enjoy what they do to earn a living, bcoz i simply couldnt.

kesimpulannya, tensi esok kejaaaaaa!!!!!!

gatal!

hi you.. sorry for the silence. office's internet down since last two weeks maka susah mau update. kat umah ada tenet, pc pulak buat hal. bengang punya pasal, hariz format balik semua n pasang linux. a bit weird n need some getting use to, but otherwise fine.

am recovering now, this month mmg record ah. dua kali mc, 3 kali p klinik. sometimes i wonder if i got this body secondhand, fragile la ya rabbi. migraine la, flu la. thats not counting a dry spell that hit my whole face so bad it itched, then flaked on me.

its like i dont recognise ME anymore. everythings alien now. dah la muka buat perangai, my lips on some days start to itch in the morning, then swell, reddens like mad n dry up.

i hate to say this but i might NEED another lipbalm!

the haze is getting into my brain. everywhere i look, is all hazy and fogged up.

is it because my eye power has gone up?

nope, i've had my acuvue clear with new superpowers.

apparently having acuvue CLEAR doesnt really clear MY sight.

grey skies, grey mood, heck now my favourite colour is GREY.

if anyone asks u about weather, the best answer would be:

'haven't the foggiest.'

ok. i'm officially fogged up.