Current Routine

Today is Day 30. Yeay Umar dah sebulan!

Unfortunately, it also means 30days of no TV. haih. nak buat cne, TV kat tingkat atas, dlm bilik takde TV. not that mak doesn't allow me to go up the stairs but i didn't trust myself holding umar going up the slippery stairs. Yet. Who knows? maybe tomorrow i will.

u guys know how vain i am right? right? righttt... well now everything goes out the window. n sleeping with the aircon blowing direct ke muka doesn't exactly help. At all. Even my sister, when she wrongly bought a cleanser for oil control for me and i said well this won't help at all now i'm quite dry, went 'ooh yaaa... i can see the dry patches...'

Sedih.

My current beauty routine:

hair tied in high bun to stretch whatever feature that is sagging, nothing done on unconcealable panda eyes.

Clinique Mild Cleanser on face.

Lucas Papaw ointment on dry lips (n dry, cracked nips).

DONE.

2x sedih.

I need face (and body!!) overhaul, STAT.

A pic to soothe a panicky fat mom:

aaahhhh... heaven...

Am I really prepared for this?

( i know: anis, TOO LATE.)

the most lingering question for a new momma, will i be a good mother? i've tried reading a LOT, but i know no theory can prepare me completely until i experience it myself. harap2 dapat jadi mama yg baik, aminnn.. or as hariz said, nnti kalau mama menyinga jadi raksasa gorgon, baby boleh jadi otromen... :D

will i be able to finish preparing for the material stuff before delivering? i do have a lot to pack, see. This is not even about hospital bags. ARGGHHH!

Baby stuff, easy, i'll just lug EVERYTHING into bag #1-beg bb balik pantang di SgPetani + raya di K.Trganu. Senang, sebab semua barang baru kan. Its the parents' stuff that's worrisome.

Thing is, if everything is according to my EDD, there'll be only a few days left to puasa after pantang and then raya. N we'll be heading east straight from north, so i'm not in the liberty to get back to our place before heading east, hence the freaking out having to pack for raya in REJAB.

Baju raya? hariz punya tak beli lagi? sendiri punya?(sendiri punya tu MUAT KE???)
Baju2 spare utk kenduri2 & open house?? yg sedia ada tak tentu muat!!
Songkok, tudung, butang baju melayu, sampin jgn lupa!
anak2 sutun, baju pegi dapur, baju jalan2 tepi pantai, baju tido????

all this, on top of risau sakit bersalin, risau baby hari2 kira movement, risau baby lahir normal/tak, risau mama's hospital bag tak siap lagi(???!!!), risau all the stiff joints i felt if i dont move during my sleep (hidung merah+kembang, kaki bengkak, dan jari macam sosej tu takyah cerita la).. haih..

isk.

kan dah kata, pulut = starch = heavy = fat arse??!!

DEPRESS MODE: ON (masa makan tak ingat pulak nak stress. hmmphh!)

a shoutout

just because i wear baju kurung doesn't mean i can't understand an english phrase.

honestly, "krim manis(whipped cream)"???!!!

how thick do you think i am?

obviously as thick as the 'krim manis'.

its friday babes!

had a very slow start today, bangun pagi dah bengang, sebab tak tau nak stop phone alarm. bongoks. tu lah, takde manual semua kena korek sendiri (macam la kalau ada manual tu ko baca anis oi). seb baik last2 tau cne.

hai... buta teknologi sungguh.

havent had the heart to discard my old love yet. sayang laaa, walaupun hp tu dah rosak. i think its juz the battery, but still. (saja alasan nak beli baru).

we're back in KD, barang2 tak kemas balik lagi. apa la nasib perantau kitorang ni. tgh bercinta dua org ni boleh laaa.. aritu berangan nak dapat kembar (we both have immediate cousins who are twins, n cousins who beranakkan twins) supaya terus buleh tutup kedai, diorg dah buleh kawan dua org. best kan? kalau sorg aku jenuh kena pk nak dapat lagi satu, nak dapat sorg pun tak dapat2 lagi.

tapi... mak cakap `takpala.. takdak rezeki lagi. satgi dia mai banyak, hang tak laghat nak tepih'. (which was soo like her, aku dgn adik no1 selang 4 tahun, tapi lepas tu dan-dan setahun satu). mcm ckp utk diri sendiri kan?

mari berusaha! :D

apeke mengarut aku harini.. takpelah, layan kan aje ye...

spot(SS) on!

yep. for those who hasnt known, i'm officially a very old kid yesterday. dapat chicken pox you! hahahaha

i've had a chilly episode on tuesday, which led to me getting mc on wednesday. since then my temperature had gone up and down with paracetamol ingestion. dr pointed out that it was viral, that i had to do blood test if the fever didnt break by the third day.

well on the third day was my lucky day. spotted a blister! but i thought it was juz a normal blister, sbb tgh poke blisters on my feet hasil pakai heels baru ke ofis.

so here i am now, stuck at home being a queen bee, faithfully ingesting acyclovir to prevent the worst (especially on my face!!!)

the worst is, hariz juz came back after buying 4 Avatar 3D tickets for us when i showed him the spots yesterday. terpaksa la lelong tiket tu. seb baik my 2nd cuz nak beli, kalo tak melayang duit.

wish me well!

V.A.I.N.

at some point, some of us (i.e. me!!) will become (overly) conscious of our appearance and smell and darkspots and acne and freckles and laughlines and.. u get what i mean. being in my age now i'm conscious of my wrinkling skin more than ever (baru sibuk nak tonyoh lotion kat kaki)!!!. dgr fly.fm pagi tadi pasal being a vainpot reminded me of my post dulu-dulu.

i was hopping round the net when i came across allure.com's Get Youthful Skin: 12 Easy Anti-aging Tricks (omg aku rasa tua gila bila baca ni). some yg betul2 terkena batang hidung sendiri:

Tip no9: CLEAN UP YOUR ACTION

Remember the little things. They can lead to big trouble—like premature aging.

• Stop squinting (sunglasses help). And if you wear eyeglasses or contact lenses, make sure your prescription is up to date.
• Avoid sipping through a straw. It contributes to lines around the mouth.
• Break the habit of resting your chin on your hand. (It stretches the skin.)
• Switch to a smooth satin pillowcase. The creases in cotton eventually make their mark on your face.

when i read this i was like omaigod omaigod i do all this i squint i sip through straws i rest my chin on my hands ALL THE TIME!!

AAARRRGGGHHH!!!

need to kick the habit. need to kick the habit. need to kick the habit (while trying very hard not to rest my chin on my hands)

tensiiii!!!

aaaaaaaa esok kejaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!

it was a known fact that my dream of all dreams is to be a housewife yg takde keje lain pegi shopping n spa-menyepa, which is sadly, i know, will forever be a dream.

i mean, gila ke hapa nak quit job (even though i never ever liked it, right from the time i was studying it). i'm still sane, thank you. but still, its all coming fast. extended hours, 24 hour services (which means working in shifts that i really couldnt ...) n this h1n1 thingy still 'sepak'ing my ass every bloody week, makes me long to live my dream.

still, a job is a job however u say it. i really envy those who really enjoy what they do to earn a living, bcoz i simply couldnt.

kesimpulannya, tensi esok kejaaaaaa!!!!!!

feeling even crappier

kepala pening.

perut pun pening.

gigi sakit (lagi!).

stress lah mcm ni.

sapa nak teman aku p shopping jumaat ni?

pls add number 2 in front of that size 0.

no. i'm not UK size 20.

hmm.. dah lama takde mood nak mengupdate. shall i blame it (again!) to having writer's block?

takde alasan pun. malas.

same old same old lah.

or not.

muka dah makin macam pau.

a week of MIL's yummy cooking can do that to you ok. i told hariz that if we ever settle down in terengganu i can resemble a (CUTE!) puffer fish in no time.

cute konon. dah jadi macam bonsai, cute..

pls excuse my sarcasm, i need to throw it down the drain and summon some positive energy.

this must be the fact that i now have a nice size 0 mannequin in my house.

faceless it may be, but still oh so depressing.

now, where's my measuring tape?

heartless

couldnt find the heart to blog these days. y ah?

not feeling very well since bali trip. nak p keje takde semangat langsung (as if la b4 this semangat sangat kannn), balik keje pun terbongkang tak ingat dunia dah.

i soooo need to detox.

n hair trimming wd be welcome too. panas nya, ya Rabbiiii. alamat bil letrik bulan ni melambung la asek pasang aircon.

later. tekak dah perit. baik la p togok air banyak2.

malaysia oh tanahairku...

malas nye nak layan. tp yg kesian tu si hariz lah. aku kena tinggal dia dua minggu. sangap la kawan sorg2.

tapi takpe. lagi cepat setel benda nih, lagi bagus. aku dah x larat nak pk.

nak kena ke mana?

induksi. duh.

dah dekat3 3 tahun baru panggil. last time dia buat ada panggil jugak, tp last minit isi tmpat org. tanak ah aku. arini bagitau, esok nak kena p. org plan sampai 2-3 minggu ahead dah.

takpa. kali ni 15 hari tu campur BTN sekali. unlike dulu induksi 14 + BTN 5 hari = 19 hari.

kena ke p... malasnyaaaaaa

dok umah baca buku cerita lagi best.

benci!

my hands are cold and trembling. my heart is palpitating.

godddddddd i'm sooooo PPPPPPPPPPIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDD

sick sick sick

feeling better now. stil a bit heavyheaded, but otherwise fine. my nose's still runny though. the best part is, dapat mc, dua hari. its so sweet of the dr to ask whether i need 1 or 2 days off. so i said, 1 would be good, but 2 would be better! so i'm on leave from yesterday till sunday. yeay! plenty plenty plenty of rest :D

wednesday was so exhausting n made me soooooo damn angry it took some toll on me yg dah mmg x brp sihat. tgk, sampai mc sudah.

its a bit complicated and long to tell, but in a nutshell, all i can say is that i'm vowing to stay away from airasia as long as i can n to the woman staff that i deal with at the lcct, no thanks lady, ur help was no help at all. i spent a good 45 minutes with u n the best u came up with is a number from the internet that has been discontinued! some help u r. if i dont get my money back, u, of all ppl, will not live ur life easily. n what i wrote here is mild compared to what i actually felt towards u.

there. thats some load off my chest. thank you for reading this crap i'm writing here.

surat kepada cik jer

my dear jer,

u know i'm not so very partial of u. i think i've made that known ever since u started to grow on the inside of my nose (of all places!!!) when i was in secondary school. every time ko naik, aku akan korek dan korek dan korek dan korek sampai aku puas ati. i dont care what other ppl wd say about my hate relationship with u, that i should treat u with care, so as not to damage myself. but i simply cannot tahan oredi. i juz hate u. period.

let me say this again. I HATE U!

i thought i got rid of u for good when i hit 20, but nooo... u still come by every month like an old friend visiting, albeit uninvited. walaupun rasa marah xtertahan, aku masih buleh control, bcoz u didnt go mabuk n beranak byk2 on me. cukup time ko pegi. yg tu i can stand.

but now its a different matter altogether.

ever since i got back home after that traumatising incident, u began to visit quite more frequently than before, which i despise and cannot fathom why. why on earth do u want to come by? my face become more fertile for u izit? or becoz my face become a lot chubbier, u think, like, 'more space for me, yeay!'?

aku pun dah besar. i'm not some teenager that u can make a home of. i know i'm very stressed lately. but thats not an excuse for u to come, i didnt invite u anyway. so pls, get the hell OFF my face!

~(not)yours truly~

penghibur hati

MEE vs BIHUN

Bihun sangat cemburukan mee. Walau duduk di rak bersebelahan di supermarket, mereka tak pernah bertegur sapa.
Malah bihun sering mempersendakan mee di depan umum,
"Dasar si kuning gemuk… ingat orang suka sangat kat dialah tu!"

hari-hari berlalu… namun mee buat derk aje dengan segala kerenah dan hinaan bihun.
Sehingga satu hari pekerja supermarket mengalih rak mee ke tempat lain.
bihun gembira kerana tidak lagi melihat musuh tradisinya.
Hari berikutnya rak baru diletakkan di sebelah bihun, rak spaghetti.Bihun rasa marah dah berteriak;
"Hoi, si kuning gemuk! jangan fikir kobuat teknik rebonding camtu aku tak kenal ko!!!"

i have to admit this. i got careless. not that i'm always careful. but this time my 'careless and free' motto has gotten the better of me. so much for maintenance free , huh. n whoever says its maintenance free anyway? meh sini aku piat telinga tuh. maintenance free, my foot!

now i have to bear the consequence. aiyyoooohhh!!

saiko

smlm kan.. aku kuarkan minced meat dari freezer.. konon2 nk buat beef patties.. sementara nk tunggu defrost tu aku cincang la bawang.. boh dlm mangkuk.. tinggal la tepi sink tuh..

pastu kan, aku rasa2 mcm lama lagi daging tu nak defrost, aku mandi la dulu.. siap syampu rambut nyanyi sumer siap.
pastu aku p la nk smbung prepare tuh.. tgk2 ada dua tiga ekor semut dlm mangkuk tuh.. aku buat la mcm bunyi bising, hariz pun tnye...

apsal tuh...

xde pe.. semut..

mana2?

dia terus dtg dgn senjata baru dia. ala... ridsect yg ada muncung haluuuussss tuh. aku pun ckp:

xnak la sembur skrg... nnti2 blh x..

pastu dia tah ke mana2 dok sembur2 jgk. seb baik jauh dari tmpt masak. tp busuk la kan. dh la umah tu kecik cenonit..

aku mula la hangin, time2 ni la nk sembur menatang tuh.. aku dh la x suka bau dia..

dh siap, aku pun buat la burger daging tu.. dalam ati tgh marah lg.. marah ape lagi pun xtau dah. tp tau nk marah. nasib baik x hangus burger.

dah abis goreng, kuarkan daun salad n tomato, potong2. pastu aku p smayang maghrib. dlm ati stil lagi distraught ntah apsal. tgh2 smayang tetiba nangis.. basah telekung.

hariz dah abis smayang maghrib dtg kat aku,

ni apsal menangis plk nih..

aku jawab la xtau.

sedih, sbb sllu marah2. kengkadang tu mende kecik je, tp marah jgk. abg pun satuuuu!!!

nasib baik dia paham. siap pujuk baik2, buat lawak2. dia tau,

aku tgh saiko skrg.

pastu mkn beef patties kepit dgn wholewheat bread. pastu aku ok, walaupun mata sembab dan pedih. happy blk, smbil mkn aiskrim potong kacang merah.

ke sebenarnya aku lapar yg menyebabkan ke'saiko'an aku?

sightings!

its dark, and raining........... whattttt?????!!!!


EMPTY-BEAKED STORKSSS?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no wonder we're yet to be three!


it's supposed to be like this:

or even better, like this:

on second thought, ke diorg dah abis hantar all those babies to 12 (pls count the number of birds in the first pic) mommy-to-bes n left me out?

hwaaaaa!!!

pls count me in for the next delivery ey mr. stork!

chocolate and green and everything in between

i love chocolate. anything chocolate. i'm sure many can relate to me regarding this one everlasting love.

n i love it more when its paired with mint. love it, love it, LOVE IT! be it ice cream, chocolate bar, or cupcakes, i love them all.

in comes another one. lippy. i do like to play with lippies, be it balm, glosses, or plain sheer lipstick (although i basically stick to safe colours -brownish rose and nude pink which suited me well).

what happens when all three are combined?

u get this:
one swipe, and one sniff of it is enough to elevate ur endorphin levels! plus, u don't have to worry about the extra pounds to pile if ur addicted to this!

what a way to destress!!!

i am so in looooovvveeeee